34. If a man is really meant to be judged by his actions and not his words, let us put the bible down for a second and take a look at this man's actions. Witch-hunts, The Crusades, Slavery, Divine providence, and the Catholics position of non-involvement during the Holocaust...These are the actions your faith has heaped upon his name. Our society rails against abortion, calling it immoral, calling it murder...all the while these same people suit our youth up to kill men, women, and children simply because their beliefs do not adhere to ours. These are your actions, now judge my words.
35. I do not worship The Devil, I hate him almost as much as I hate the image of god that Christianity has super-imposed over their ambition. I shall reject man's ambition by rejecting man's religion. I will accept that there can be no purity in anything that our species touches, or teaches. I will accept that Man will turn anything he can into a crusade for his own personal gain. Religion is against thought, because too much thought is against religion. I will take the time to figure out my own path, and I will also realize that my path cannot be the path for everybody else, therefore, it is not something that I should force upon everybody else. I will not force others to walk down my path, for such use of any one thought will turn it into a belief, and eventually wear down the soul. I was not borne with a title, and I have decided to discard the titles that other men have thrust upon me. I will now call myself a thinker, for that is what I am, and that is what I always will be...
I shall not look upon the man next to me and pretend that we are the same, because we are, and our egos will never allow either of us to admit it. Instead I will cherish and respect the minute differences that, for all time, will make us seem worlds apart. 10 fingers, 10 toes, two hands, one brain, will never be enough for us to call ourselves brothers. I will accept that the world will never change just because I wish it to, and that prayer is a poor substitute for action. I will not make excuses for my failures. I will either learn from them and grow stronger, or I won't and I will perish. I will accept that I am indeed an animal, and that the urges and impulses that I have been taught my whole to be wrong and sinful are all natural parts of my instinct, my will to survive...
9/12/08
and it has all been moved....finally.
1. To get us started let me first define the two major terms that will be used in this series of rants I intend to write. Both of these concepts started with one simple definition, but over the years i have found both of these words to be quite versitile when describing my outlook on life. My whole philisophical profile revolves around them...
Sin
My rejection of morality as an unwinnable fight against instinct. The realization that at the end of the day we are all animals, and will act as such as the situation demands. No religious conviction or scientific theory can hide it...when it comes down to you or me it's going to be you if i have anything to say about it.
For this body of work Sin is also a description of any action man can perform without knowledge of how to perform said action.
Saint
The ability to look past instinct and behave rationally in an unrational world. The realization that instinct cannot control all in today's society and adjust accordingly.
In this body of work it also serves as my definition for knowledge, or any action that you have to learn to properly use.
Neither of these concepts should be misconstrued as good or evil, because both can be brutal or beautiful in their execution.
Everything after this is just random thoughts i've had through out the day that conform with my world view. This may be kind of long, but i felt like writing. Not to mention Myspace finally affords me the opportunity to get some critique on my work.
2. God; the most versitile word in the english language. How could such a concept gain so much stability through sheer interpretation?
3. The grossest form of interpretation, or misquotation linked with the word god to me is the concept of Original Sin being gained by eating the forbidden fruit of knowledge...Sin is the precursor to knowledge, it cannot be the result.
4. Man's greatest invention: I sat back and pondered on this question until suddenly it hit me; Our greatest invention has to be the fist. No: I don't believe that the fist is an instinctual action. The fist is a tool, a device you must learn how to create, and how to use properly. The fist is the start of all human violence, and all human power. Indeed, all historic and modern forms of violence imitiate its form. Pay attention to the shape of your hand while holding a gun, or a knife, a sword, or a club...notice how many different actions you do during the day (both constructive and destructive) that require a fist to do. The fist was the key to human survival. I can guarantee you that the inventors of wheel and fire lost their tools to knuckle and club...
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5. Say "you know" again motherfucker, say it one more motherfucking time...because, well, you know, I know everything you're going to say. You know, I can relate. You know? I don't. You don't know shit.
I was put here to judge you, because, you know, You have no daggers you can throw at me.
6. If man has touched it, it is corruptable. If man has touched it, it is more than likely already corrupted. There is no thought or belief that can remain pure when human ambition is involved. Trust nothing, not even this.
7. I think there is indeed a God, and a Devil. I just wonder why an omnipotent being would ever be so concerned about mortals pledging thier souls to it. I question why the Devil is devoted to taking those souls away from God. It seems more than just a matter of pride to me. I don't think that the food chain stops here on earth...I think they eat us.
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8. Raise your voice to the Gods, scream until your lungs collapse. Keep pretending that your volume is going to set you free. It all sounds like silence to me.
9. I would like to see the government start to issue "federal kill cards", two a year for every American citizen. Two kills a year, no questions asked. Some asshole cuts you off, and you've already had a bad day. Put a bullet in his head. As long as you have a kill card left there will be no repercusions. I don't think i'd ever use one, but i know that within the second year most of our monsters will be dead and gone from vengeance killings.
10. While we're at it lets legalize all drugs, every one. It would cut crime to a quarter of what it was. We'd probably erase our deficit just from the taxes off of it. Hell we could probably get rid of all taxes except for drug taxes and still have money to run the country every year.
Close all rehab clinics, don't offer any government assistance for drug addicts. Make sure that any crime that does involve addiction carries a very severe punishment. (preferably the death penalty) For the first few years addiction rates will be off the charts, but eventually these weak and worthless people will kill themselves off. The stigma of drug use will dissipate, and people will learn the value of moderation. When it's right there in their faces there's no running, or feigning ignorance. These people will either learn or die...either is fine with me.
11. We should all have the right to destroy ourselves any way that we see fit. We have become a country of hypocracy. Trying to tell people that we have a better way for them to live, and punishing them for not adhering to it. If it isn't something that is harming anybody else it should not become a social or legal issue.
12. The main point i'm trying to push into your face is that we're trying to save too many lives in this country, we're going against nature. People are supposed to die, The stupid, and the weak, the diseased; these people are being allowed to continue breeding and polluting our gene pool with genetic inferiorities that should have been allowed to die. On a personal level this sounds cruel, i know, but when looking at the species in general you must realize we're on the road to extinction by giving these fuckers extra help in survival.
13. Breeders licenses are another must in my opinion. I think we as a nation can come up with some kind of standardized test to determine if somebody should have the right to procreate, or if their genes should be forced to fade into obscurity.
9. I would like to see the government start to issue "federal kill cards", two a year for every American citizen. Two kills a year, no questions asked. Some asshole cuts you off, and you've already had a bad day. Put a bullet in his head. As long as you have a kill card left there will be no repercusions. I don't think i'd ever use one, but i know that within the second year most of our monsters will be dead and gone from vengeance killings.
10. While we're at it lets legalize all drugs, every one. It would cut crime to a quarter of what it was. We'd probably erase our deficit just from the taxes off of it. Hell we could probably get rid of all taxes except for drug taxes and still have money to run the country every year.
Close all rehab clinics, don't offer any government assistance for drug addicts. Make sure that any crime that does involve addiction carries a very severe punishment. (preferably the death penalty) For the first few years addiction rates will be off the charts, but eventually these weak and worthless people will kill themselves off. The stigma of drug use will dissipate, and people will learn the value of moderation. When it's right there in their faces there's no running, or feigning ignorance. These people will either learn or die...either is fine with me.
11. We should all have the right to destroy ourselves any way that we see fit. We have become a country of hypocracy. Trying to tell people that we have a better way for them to live, and punishing them for not adhering to it. If it isn't something that is harming anybody else it should not become a social or legal issue.
12. The main point i'm trying to push into your face is that we're trying to save too many lives in this country, we're going against nature. People are supposed to die, The stupid, and the weak, the diseased; these people are being allowed to continue breeding and polluting our gene pool with genetic inferiorities that should have been allowed to die. On a personal level this sounds cruel, i know, but when looking at the species in general you must realize we're on the road to extinction by giving these fuckers extra help in survival.
13. Breeders licenses are another must in my opinion. I think we as a nation can come up with some kind of standardized test to determine if somebody should have the right to procreate, or if their genes should be forced to fade into obscurity.
It's so had coming up with titles for shit I've already written
14. Whore, slut, ho....i find it strange how quick we are to insult the one group of people that understand the truth about our society. Everybody sells a little bit of themselves to survive every day...
15. I wonder if it would be easier for you to hate me if I cared... I think it would be harder for me to hate you if you did.
Hate and love are strange emotions anyway...i only have a limited amount of love to give. My hate can go on forever...
16. Heaven and Hell are not our only options. Neither is achieved through judgement...they are decided by fealty. The alternative is "Purgatory" (for lack of a better name), a place ruled by the undecided...those who would not swear allegiance to either of our worlds divine, super-powers. I can not imagine this place as pretty, or peaceful. I can see it as a spiritual mirror to this world. As i have stated I do not think that the natural order ends with death. I think that souls can eat other souls to become more powerful. I think that this is how God became God in the first place. I think that I could too...
15. I wonder if it would be easier for you to hate me if I cared... I think it would be harder for me to hate you if you did.
Hate and love are strange emotions anyway...i only have a limited amount of love to give. My hate can go on forever...
16. Heaven and Hell are not our only options. Neither is achieved through judgement...they are decided by fealty. The alternative is "Purgatory" (for lack of a better name), a place ruled by the undecided...those who would not swear allegiance to either of our worlds divine, super-powers. I can not imagine this place as pretty, or peaceful. I can see it as a spiritual mirror to this world. As i have stated I do not think that the natural order ends with death. I think that souls can eat other souls to become more powerful. I think that this is how God became God in the first place. I think that I could too...
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20. I know my shit stinks...that doesn't mean that I want to smell it....
17. So i'm going into the local Walmart to cash in my 25 dollar gift card that my company gave me for christmas, (which is, of course, so much better than a bonus or beer) and there's this pair of guys outside with a bell and a bucket trying to get donations to their charity. Some bullshit organization that gives a whopping 3% of their donations and send it out to help the starving children of Ethiopia buy fly-paper.
The problem is these bitches started screaming at people who didn't give a donation. They kept telling people that they were sinners, and that they should repent. I think one even said he was a messenger from god or some such rot. The Salesmen of God? If this is a sample of what i'm going to find in heaven i think it may be a little too loud for me.
I can picture it now, filled with a billion souls, all of which are trying to get donations from the others...
18. "Thy will be done"...probably the biggest cop-out in the history of language. I sincerely doubt God's will is in anyway responsible for what we have done.
19. I do not love you. I am not sympathetic to your plight. Your life does not interest me. I do not care how your children are doing, or if you have enough money to feed yourself tomorrow. If I pass you on the street I will not smile or wave. I do not hate you, or fear you. I do not care if you are a Republican, or Democrat, Christian, or Jew. I am not your fucking brother. I do not know you, therefore I have no emotion at all I am willing to give to you. I do think I would like to help you. Not by telling you what to think, but by telling you what I think. Maybe I can inspire you to do some thinking on your own.
I would enjoy it immensely if everybody disagreed with me. Because then they'd have to take the time to think about why they disagree.
17. So i'm going into the local Walmart to cash in my 25 dollar gift card that my company gave me for christmas, (which is, of course, so much better than a bonus or beer) and there's this pair of guys outside with a bell and a bucket trying to get donations to their charity. Some bullshit organization that gives a whopping 3% of their donations and send it out to help the starving children of Ethiopia buy fly-paper.
The problem is these bitches started screaming at people who didn't give a donation. They kept telling people that they were sinners, and that they should repent. I think one even said he was a messenger from god or some such rot. The Salesmen of God? If this is a sample of what i'm going to find in heaven i think it may be a little too loud for me.
I can picture it now, filled with a billion souls, all of which are trying to get donations from the others...
18. "Thy will be done"...probably the biggest cop-out in the history of language. I sincerely doubt God's will is in anyway responsible for what we have done.
19. I do not love you. I am not sympathetic to your plight. Your life does not interest me. I do not care how your children are doing, or if you have enough money to feed yourself tomorrow. If I pass you on the street I will not smile or wave. I do not hate you, or fear you. I do not care if you are a Republican, or Democrat, Christian, or Jew. I am not your fucking brother. I do not know you, therefore I have no emotion at all I am willing to give to you. I do think I would like to help you. Not by telling you what to think, but by telling you what I think. Maybe I can inspire you to do some thinking on your own.
I would enjoy it immensely if everybody disagreed with me. Because then they'd have to take the time to think about why they disagree.
...or would it be called a migration.
21. And then there came the day she told me I look better in the grave, it seems to be the only time I manage to behave...
22. Ugh...Crosses, fireworks, new beginnings, and bunnies....we could always save ourselves a lot of time and just shove a firecracker up a bunnies ass and crucify it...
23. What good can really be said about a society where the laws outnumber the people...what good can be said about the society that would have it that way.
24. From the musician to the poet, the sculptor, the painter, dancer, or writer. All the people who have inspired and entertained us...you may believe that the artist is possessed with a deeper understanding of themselves or the souls of those around them. The truth...We're just a little more full of shit than those around us.
25. "Given enough time everybody will betray you" in some way or form.
For me I find that it is easier for me to forgive the betrayal that was produced for personal gain. I never seem to be able to forgive the ones that had nothing to gain for it. Betrayal for personal gain implies a lack of morals, while the latter suggests a lack of character...
26. "Turn the other cheek?" Are you serious? Have we really evolved into a society that defines maturity as cowardice? I for one will be dogdamned if i'm gonna be the bigger man. Slap me and I'll crack your fucking skull...unless your bigger than me ;)
22. Ugh...Crosses, fireworks, new beginnings, and bunnies....we could always save ourselves a lot of time and just shove a firecracker up a bunnies ass and crucify it...
23. What good can really be said about a society where the laws outnumber the people...what good can be said about the society that would have it that way.
24. From the musician to the poet, the sculptor, the painter, dancer, or writer. All the people who have inspired and entertained us...you may believe that the artist is possessed with a deeper understanding of themselves or the souls of those around them. The truth...We're just a little more full of shit than those around us.
25. "Given enough time everybody will betray you" in some way or form.
For me I find that it is easier for me to forgive the betrayal that was produced for personal gain. I never seem to be able to forgive the ones that had nothing to gain for it. Betrayal for personal gain implies a lack of morals, while the latter suggests a lack of character...
26. "Turn the other cheek?" Are you serious? Have we really evolved into a society that defines maturity as cowardice? I for one will be dogdamned if i'm gonna be the bigger man. Slap me and I'll crack your fucking skull...unless your bigger than me ;)
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27. I have always found concepts and language behind racism and prejudice to be perplexing. For some reason our ego will not let us define the terms truthfully, and that has led many to mis-interpret the people who infect the category.
I understand why racism has and always will exist (though I do not agree with it at all). It exists because the only natural predator that humans have left in this world is other humans. So we section ourselves off and isolate ourselves into groups to protect us from ourselves. Even in todays society strangers mean danger and as long as that is true we will continue to place judgement on those who are different from us and the social group in which we inhabit.
What bothers me about the definition of the concept is the word "hate" that always seems to be sown into the language...let me use and example. I hate cops, can't stand them, and I can't stand to be around them. These are the words my ego tells me to use when I describe my feelings about cops. In truth, I fear them. I fear the power that they have over me, and I fear the things they can do to me. The Racist, the Biggot, the man with prejudices may use the word hate, but they really mean fear...and that is a far more dangerous word by far.
28. If it's one thing I've learned from dealing with snakes is that animals consider a creature who is afraid to be dangerous, more likely to be irrational, more likely to attack or do harm to it. In my interactions with humans I am always more cautious of the ones who fear me...
29. Every day I am barraged by advertisements that range from idiotic to fucking retarded. While the very thought of them makes me want to smash my television and move to the jungles of Bornio to live a life of seclusion there is something that stands to be learned from them. These companies spend billions of dollars a year hiring advertising firms who in turn spend large amounts of time doing market research to determine how to best attract as many of our countries consumers as possible. They complete this research, find a target audience, and develop a comercial. So what does this mean? The majority of Americans are fucking retarded, and I'm gonna move to Bornio...
I understand why racism has and always will exist (though I do not agree with it at all). It exists because the only natural predator that humans have left in this world is other humans. So we section ourselves off and isolate ourselves into groups to protect us from ourselves. Even in todays society strangers mean danger and as long as that is true we will continue to place judgement on those who are different from us and the social group in which we inhabit.
What bothers me about the definition of the concept is the word "hate" that always seems to be sown into the language...let me use and example. I hate cops, can't stand them, and I can't stand to be around them. These are the words my ego tells me to use when I describe my feelings about cops. In truth, I fear them. I fear the power that they have over me, and I fear the things they can do to me. The Racist, the Biggot, the man with prejudices may use the word hate, but they really mean fear...and that is a far more dangerous word by far.
28. If it's one thing I've learned from dealing with snakes is that animals consider a creature who is afraid to be dangerous, more likely to be irrational, more likely to attack or do harm to it. In my interactions with humans I am always more cautious of the ones who fear me...
29. Every day I am barraged by advertisements that range from idiotic to fucking retarded. While the very thought of them makes me want to smash my television and move to the jungles of Bornio to live a life of seclusion there is something that stands to be learned from them. These companies spend billions of dollars a year hiring advertising firms who in turn spend large amounts of time doing market research to determine how to best attract as many of our countries consumers as possible. They complete this research, find a target audience, and develop a comercial. So what does this mean? The majority of Americans are fucking retarded, and I'm gonna move to Bornio...
Last bit of poetry
The moments refuse us,
as our faces devour our eyes
if we were dying like we should be
we could never get away with wasting our time
so what can I tell you baby?
what should I say?
is it me or is it memory
that scares you away?
GraphicMy obsession's in regression, my world is stained like glass.
Somehow, inside I always knew, this pain would never last.
So I'll smile ear to ear, because you carved it in my face
as I sit around and await the day that I will be replaced
"...and then there came the day she told me I look better in the grave, It seems to be the only time I manage to behave."
My prison's getting bigger, but a cage is still a cage
I'll be as visceral as your vernacular, as hollow as your rage
as I pretend to tell you things, I couldn't tell myself
but that is all I have...there is nothing else
Scapegoat
You swear he cried, swear he lied,
swear he gave up his life,
to make us all feel guilty.
Go to him, confess all sin, let him tell you what's within,
I hope you feel so guilty
Scapegoat, blame him for your failure,
blame it on your savior
I won't blame you when I wind up in hell
there's nothing left in this cold soul to sell
Split the ribs, catch his blood, kill the man from above
Nothing lasts forever
I don't care, I don't know, where I'm supposed to go
people preach, and they decieve, Beg me to believe
I'll believe in what I see, you never believed in me
let me go to hell in piece
Scapegoat, blame me for your failure
Blame it on your savior,
don't blame me when you wind up in hell
there's nothing left in your cold soul to sell
So Bright, So Pretty
I try to wish upon you, as you cut my words like glass,
and slit my wrists like roses, as if this pain would last,
your light bores into me, fucking with my sight,
every day you fade away, but i still hate you every night,
your star is so much brighter, my star is a black hole,
a fucking atom bomb, a truth without a soul,
your star devours mine, chews me up like meat,
your so fucking special, I am incomplete...
A River Or A Corpse
She had eyes made of iron, a face like a grave,
though the words and excuses are forgotten and dead,
the addictions remain the same
I know god is with her, and through her he shall never see me
on the outside she's pretty and perfect, she's special
Inside she's as filthy as me
I flow through you like sediment,
drifting away to where all discarded things go
if there's anything else you'd like to take from me
just be sure to let me know
you brought and end to redemption
and told me it was for the best
most was lost to indecision
I'll leave you all of the rest
Poetry (more moved stuff)
the path to security (lies in a hole)
Man isn't perfect, yet he made up god
what does that make him, a brief empty nod
a scream we can't hear, an admission of guilt
and you all should feel guilty, for the blood that you've spilt
the witches you burned, the paper you waste
the crosses you bear, and your damnable taste
the children you scare, the devils you fear
the grave that you pray for, the lie you revere...
More pre-written shit I didn't want to lose
So for the past few weeks i've been under contract to read the water meters at tybee island, and in the process of completing that fucking nightmare i have composed a laundry list of shit that is driving me crazy. I know i need to get back to my writing, but for right now Sinography will still be placed on hold. Right now, however, i just feel like unloading some of my complaints so that i won't be annoyed alone.
So I'm riding around listening to rock 106.1, and ever since it started getting close to the 4th of July they've been playing these fucking commercials with a constant sound clip of fireworks going of in the background. Three or four commercials mind you, all with the same fucking sound clip running in the background. So one of the sadistic fucking ads comes on, and I turn off my radio. (because I am a very closed minded music lover, and there's no other station that plays shit i like to hear) Now when i turn the radio back on there's a different commercial with the same fucking sound bite, I try to grin and bear it, but i eventually have to turn it back off the split second before i crack and start mowing down pedestrians with my truck. A couple of minutes later I turn it on again only to find this new commercial that's advertising some kind of program to help you straighten out your credit debt..score. Now the commercial starts of by asking you if you have serious credit debt, and then goes on to say that it isn't your fault, the credit card companies are making it happen. So now i'm really pissed. How in the fucking hell can we allow this "its not your fault" mentality continue. Look if you make 25k a year and you buy a 30k car, and two 50 inch plasma televisions on your credit card...IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT THAT YOU HAVE CREDIT DEBT. It's been going on for years, and i for one am fucking sick of hearing about this pussy shit. It's like those fat assholes a few years ago who sued mcdonalds because they got fat. How in the fuck can you blame Mcdonalds for making you fat, how in the fuck did the win that. "Well i didn't know it had that much fat in it"...Lookey here asshole, if you didn't know that fat, fried in fat, and wrapped in fat is going to make you fat you're a fucking idiot. Not only are you an idiot, but you're wasting my fucking air...go shove a fucking pencil in your eye and save a little of my sanity. Better yet put the fucking hamburger down, get off of the couch, and go jog somewhere, ride a bike, do a fucking situp or something. It's all your fault. You know what I'm going to walk into a burger king and start shooting people, just fucking mowing down everybody there, it isn't my fault 2pac made me do it....fucking liberal hand-holding, pussies. Ok i have gotten a little off track, and all puncuation has gone to shit here, but goddamn how fucking stupid can our country get. I'm going to Bornio...
So I park somewhere and bash my head into the radio until it breaks, and decide to take a break (not that i've done any work in the past 3 hours) and people watch a little bit. I don't know if i've told you guys this, but i love to people watch, i don't know why, but it has always been something i've loved to do. So i'm sitting in my car and smoking a cigarrette (when i get cancer i'm sueing doral), and I come to realize that there are more fat people than skinny people. When did this happen? (i guess i managed to tie in the mcdonalds rant huh?) On the beach people seem to have no shame, which i can admire, but i'm noticing that there are tons of people who, if they had been fully clothed, i would not have noticed that they're obese. Pot-bellies, saggy asses, just all around nasty. And this is all i'm seeing, so now i've realized that not only are we getting dumber, but we're getting fatter. Young, old, middle-aged...all of them out of shape, fucking fat.
So I finally decide that I need to get up and do something (maybe all the fat people motivated me to get some exercise, or maybe i realized that the city would probably get pissed if they found out they were paying my company 30k a month for me to sit in my car and watch fat people) Now if you've never been to tybee island, don't, seriously...If georgia is god's asshole, then tybee is his anal wart. This city came to be before the people who resided there were sober enough to know how to manage a city. I can't get into all the details (My job would definately be on the line if i talked too much about it), but let me just say don't drink thier water, don't go into the fucking ocean, that place is fucked up. It is also expensive, crazy fucking expensive. Now i'm walking around checking meters, and i'm starting to notice that every person here has some kind of catchy (retarded) name for their home, and all sorts of signs with beach slogans: Jimmy buffet for president, etc...and all of these places are fucking trashed. Million dollar homes with trash piled up in the yard, grass that hasn't been cut in a year or more, junked out cars and old lumber everywhere. (and i'm expected to find buried water meters in all of this fucking mess) I've started call it the city of a thousand hobos (have no idea if i spelled that right) So we have these fucking people who are paying our the ass to live this carefree lifestyle with a bunch of fat tourists, and about this time my head exploded...I no longer understand our species. I give up. I think tybee has killed any hope i had left for humanity so fuck you guys....
So I'm riding around listening to rock 106.1, and ever since it started getting close to the 4th of July they've been playing these fucking commercials with a constant sound clip of fireworks going of in the background. Three or four commercials mind you, all with the same fucking sound clip running in the background. So one of the sadistic fucking ads comes on, and I turn off my radio. (because I am a very closed minded music lover, and there's no other station that plays shit i like to hear) Now when i turn the radio back on there's a different commercial with the same fucking sound bite, I try to grin and bear it, but i eventually have to turn it back off the split second before i crack and start mowing down pedestrians with my truck. A couple of minutes later I turn it on again only to find this new commercial that's advertising some kind of program to help you straighten out your credit debt..score. Now the commercial starts of by asking you if you have serious credit debt, and then goes on to say that it isn't your fault, the credit card companies are making it happen. So now i'm really pissed. How in the fucking hell can we allow this "its not your fault" mentality continue. Look if you make 25k a year and you buy a 30k car, and two 50 inch plasma televisions on your credit card...IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT THAT YOU HAVE CREDIT DEBT. It's been going on for years, and i for one am fucking sick of hearing about this pussy shit. It's like those fat assholes a few years ago who sued mcdonalds because they got fat. How in the fuck can you blame Mcdonalds for making you fat, how in the fuck did the win that. "Well i didn't know it had that much fat in it"...Lookey here asshole, if you didn't know that fat, fried in fat, and wrapped in fat is going to make you fat you're a fucking idiot. Not only are you an idiot, but you're wasting my fucking air...go shove a fucking pencil in your eye and save a little of my sanity. Better yet put the fucking hamburger down, get off of the couch, and go jog somewhere, ride a bike, do a fucking situp or something. It's all your fault. You know what I'm going to walk into a burger king and start shooting people, just fucking mowing down everybody there, it isn't my fault 2pac made me do it....fucking liberal hand-holding, pussies. Ok i have gotten a little off track, and all puncuation has gone to shit here, but goddamn how fucking stupid can our country get. I'm going to Bornio...
So I park somewhere and bash my head into the radio until it breaks, and decide to take a break (not that i've done any work in the past 3 hours) and people watch a little bit. I don't know if i've told you guys this, but i love to people watch, i don't know why, but it has always been something i've loved to do. So i'm sitting in my car and smoking a cigarrette (when i get cancer i'm sueing doral), and I come to realize that there are more fat people than skinny people. When did this happen? (i guess i managed to tie in the mcdonalds rant huh?) On the beach people seem to have no shame, which i can admire, but i'm noticing that there are tons of people who, if they had been fully clothed, i would not have noticed that they're obese. Pot-bellies, saggy asses, just all around nasty. And this is all i'm seeing, so now i've realized that not only are we getting dumber, but we're getting fatter. Young, old, middle-aged...all of them out of shape, fucking fat.
So I finally decide that I need to get up and do something (maybe all the fat people motivated me to get some exercise, or maybe i realized that the city would probably get pissed if they found out they were paying my company 30k a month for me to sit in my car and watch fat people) Now if you've never been to tybee island, don't, seriously...If georgia is god's asshole, then tybee is his anal wart. This city came to be before the people who resided there were sober enough to know how to manage a city. I can't get into all the details (My job would definately be on the line if i talked too much about it), but let me just say don't drink thier water, don't go into the fucking ocean, that place is fucked up. It is also expensive, crazy fucking expensive. Now i'm walking around checking meters, and i'm starting to notice that every person here has some kind of catchy (retarded) name for their home, and all sorts of signs with beach slogans: Jimmy buffet for president, etc...and all of these places are fucking trashed. Million dollar homes with trash piled up in the yard, grass that hasn't been cut in a year or more, junked out cars and old lumber everywhere. (and i'm expected to find buried water meters in all of this fucking mess) I've started call it the city of a thousand hobos (have no idea if i spelled that right) So we have these fucking people who are paying our the ass to live this carefree lifestyle with a bunch of fat tourists, and about this time my head exploded...I no longer understand our species. I give up. I think tybee has killed any hope i had left for humanity so fuck you guys....
Previous Con't
30. As the Human population rises past 6 billion I sit in awe of how we manage to be so ignorant as to how much of our planet resources we tie up, and also how much we refuse to give back to the planet. We are supposed to return to the earth so that the minerals and such that are contained in our body can be recycled into new life, but now we have created these 100 year (or was it 1000 can't remember i'll look it up later) coffins. These things are supposed to protect our precious corpses for some absurd amount of time, and in the process forgo the natural process of returning the nutrients we contain back to the planet. How much of the planets resources do you think are trapped in the ground right now? How long until we've buried so much that the earth can't recover?
31. The communication of meaning; To me that is the very definition of language. Why is it that all we seem to be accomplishing with our language is to destroy all meaning? Why are the people who truly have something to say always the quietest? Why does the rest of the world feel compelled to assault us daily with their vernacular abortions? I can't count the times I have listened to people speak, at length, about nothing. I can't count how many times I've realized that I have just let a person talk at me for an extended period of time, and had absolutely nothing at all to say. I think we all could do better as a species if we would just shut the fuck up and listen to somebody else who has something meaningful to say?
32. So let us just imagine that the bible is true, every single word of it dictated directly from the mouth of God. The world was created in seven days, and was created to be a paradise for man. There was no sin, or death, and Adam..Eve lived in perfect bliss, harmony, and ignorance with their creator. Now in this perfect garden there was only on law, that they could not eat the fruit off of the tree of knowledge. That was Gods "test" for us. But at the same time God was (still is?) an omnipotent being, the master of the heavens and the earth and all that rot. He is supposedly an all-seeing, all-knowing creature who actually took the time to create a divine plan. Now what is the Divine plan you may ask? It is Gods plan for the earth and its people, and while I'm sure it doesn't list out every petty, little thing that we are bound to do, I'm pretty sure something as serious as eating from the tree of knowledge and completely changing the function of Humanity would be something that He'd touch upon. So what does this mean? Well we can either assume that our all-seeing, all-knowing father didn't forsee what we were about to do, or that he had planned it all along. Now after this little incident everything changes. The instincts and urges that we had posessed before our offense suddenly become "sins", and we are thrown into a violent world where we need all of those instincts to survive. Now it never states in the bible that these "sins" did not exist before we ate from the tree, only that we had gained the ability to know what our actions meant. Now that we were aware, we had the capacity to evolve to the same state as God. So now he throws us a curve-ball. Now we are placed in a world where we can die, a world of nature. A world where we need every tool at our disposal to survive. At the same time we have our spiritual warden telling us that these tools, these instincts, are sins. God had effectively made us feel guilty for living. Now why would God do this? Because the confusion that this caused has left us spiritually crippled. If we spend all of our time feeling ashamed for being alive we never have the time to focus inward and develop our most powerful tool: our soul. Our Soul has potential to develop to what God is, we can evolve past our flesh, and God does not want that. Our souls are under-evolved, and we are nothing more than sheep waiting to be devoured in the next life...or maybe God is the worlds only self-sustaining creature, and nature does indeed end with us. ;)
31. The communication of meaning; To me that is the very definition of language. Why is it that all we seem to be accomplishing with our language is to destroy all meaning? Why are the people who truly have something to say always the quietest? Why does the rest of the world feel compelled to assault us daily with their vernacular abortions? I can't count the times I have listened to people speak, at length, about nothing. I can't count how many times I've realized that I have just let a person talk at me for an extended period of time, and had absolutely nothing at all to say. I think we all could do better as a species if we would just shut the fuck up and listen to somebody else who has something meaningful to say?
32. So let us just imagine that the bible is true, every single word of it dictated directly from the mouth of God. The world was created in seven days, and was created to be a paradise for man. There was no sin, or death, and Adam..Eve lived in perfect bliss, harmony, and ignorance with their creator. Now in this perfect garden there was only on law, that they could not eat the fruit off of the tree of knowledge. That was Gods "test" for us. But at the same time God was (still is?) an omnipotent being, the master of the heavens and the earth and all that rot. He is supposedly an all-seeing, all-knowing creature who actually took the time to create a divine plan. Now what is the Divine plan you may ask? It is Gods plan for the earth and its people, and while I'm sure it doesn't list out every petty, little thing that we are bound to do, I'm pretty sure something as serious as eating from the tree of knowledge and completely changing the function of Humanity would be something that He'd touch upon. So what does this mean? Well we can either assume that our all-seeing, all-knowing father didn't forsee what we were about to do, or that he had planned it all along. Now after this little incident everything changes. The instincts and urges that we had posessed before our offense suddenly become "sins", and we are thrown into a violent world where we need all of those instincts to survive. Now it never states in the bible that these "sins" did not exist before we ate from the tree, only that we had gained the ability to know what our actions meant. Now that we were aware, we had the capacity to evolve to the same state as God. So now he throws us a curve-ball. Now we are placed in a world where we can die, a world of nature. A world where we need every tool at our disposal to survive. At the same time we have our spiritual warden telling us that these tools, these instincts, are sins. God had effectively made us feel guilty for living. Now why would God do this? Because the confusion that this caused has left us spiritually crippled. If we spend all of our time feeling ashamed for being alive we never have the time to focus inward and develop our most powerful tool: our soul. Our Soul has potential to develop to what God is, we can evolve past our flesh, and God does not want that. Our souls are under-evolved, and we are nothing more than sheep waiting to be devoured in the next life...or maybe God is the worlds only self-sustaining creature, and nature does indeed end with us. ;)
The previous installments
33. We are nothing but stationary objects with far too many surfaces to be placed upon. We sit, and watch, as our leaders fist-fuck all the green they can out of our earth...we are nothing but the lubricant. As they pull the lights from the sky, it all starts to blacken, to diminish, to fade away. Almost as slowly as the light fades from our eyes as we watch our souls decorate the mantle-places of the elite. Auctioned off at the lowest of prices to the most perverse of our masters. Now we are no longer allowed to even pick our own poison, every one of them are shoved down our throats like animal crackers served with too much milk at a preschool social function. What are we to do with all of this conformity? Do we wear it like a badge of honor as our molesters watch and salivate at the thought of taking advantage of our under-aged brains? Or do we toss it to the ground in disgust and find that even our most precious loved ones have no place for somebody in their world who is so ungrateful to the system? Happiness is not a word, it has no real definition, no absolute truth, only a series of imperfect imitations of crayon-drawn fantasies designed to occupy the senses and keep the body in check. Humanities existence has disproved, completely, Darwin's theory of evolution. The survival of the fittest does not apply to us as a species anymore. If we were truly crafted in gods image, then he must be ashamed of the reflection he sees in the mirror, that we as a species, have held in front of him. My fear is not the weakness and frailty we show in our imitations of him. My fear is that our imitations are accurate portrayals. How can we be so tired of it all, when we are asleep our whole lives? Can they make enough popcorn for all of us to enjoy this spectacle? Watch, as two icons on the same side of the coin battle in rubber monster costumes for the control of your attention. Watch as the clones of marionettes disguised as thespians dance across the E! network, publicly displaying all of the trophies earned by their deception. Watch as McDonald's and Walmart star in a homemade porno spawning corruption on a scale that'll make all of congress shake in their snake-skin boots. This is our world, these are our decisions, this is our fault...So sit back, shut the fuck up, and enjoy the show.
My little slice of internet
So I have been blogging on myspace for a little while now, but today they decided they wanted to close my page down for an extended period of time and snoop through all of my shit. I'm able to get back on now, but since I have been posting passages from the book I am hoping to write (Of course I'm an incredibly lazy bastard, and haven't taken the time to back it up any where else) it pretty much scared the shit out of me. So I've decided that I hate myspace, well I came to that conclusion a while ago, but now I hate it even more. So here I am, I'm going to take all of my old stuff and post it here, and try my damndest to keep this thing updated on a regular basis...enjoy.
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